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Name: Katrina
Country: United States
State: Pennsylvania
Gender: Female
Interests: picking on people, drawing boobs, painting pop-art crap, yuengling, taking photos, running around barefoot, spinning til I collapse, shaking my ass, bitching at Darnell to come get some pho with me, reading thousands of random and amusing comics, collecting buddahs.
Expertise: Convincing myself I know anything at all about art, and boredom
Occupation: school??
Message: message meEmail: email me
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Member Since:
3/31/2004
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| "I want to fall into a hazy nothingness, and wake up next to a smile"
... one of my good friends said perfectly what i couldn't form into coherent meaning.
but it will never happen... i'm doomed to live a life being miserable and manless.
Man, life is pretty crap at the moment when it shouldn't be cause I'm doing nothing wrong. seems I'm always in the wrong situation at the wrong time.
Got too much to do and no time...
DOCTOR! adrenaline drip on high speed asap!
I have too much to do, no time to sleep... why can't the world revolve around my schedule for once? My days are taken from me, and not by school or anything good like that.
so i've figured it out! i'll never have to sleep again! I'll just play mommy to a quickly degenerating 10 year old during the day, find some good after school program at a rec center so she can be around kids her own age, and then I'll take night classes from around 2am to 6am... (anyone out there in cyber land know classes i can take that are scheduled then?)
which will leave me time during kyras rec center program to find a dinky job that pays me nothing and only needs me for about 3 or 4 hours a day. I mean, all i'll need to afford is mass amounts of caffiene right? and i'll live off of ramen til it kills me!
gee I have a wonderful 4 years ahead of me eh? | | |
| - Pedestal (i think its on this cd??)god... (wtf do i start things out with god ... i dont think he-she-it-them- hear me anymore)
im gettin tired.
heres my totally random journal that i only log onto when i remember i own it...
its funny to see how many things have progressed or declined in certain amounts of time... one day or 20 day... or 3 months.. or 6 months
6 months since i heard anything from phil...
a couple days since i heard anything from maria...
why do i think these people give a shit?
*sigh* here we go again... depressive little fuck that i am.
im still working... althogh ive traveled with ann yet again to bumfuck, pa... yay... towns with nothing to do and hotel rooms that all look the same.
at least theres only 3 of these trips in a year. the most sucky thing is that i dont get paid while im here... not to mention that this time I had to take the PSSA test and i'll have to take the next 2 parts in march
I think anthony will be gone by then. which means i dont have to worry about him hanging out with tone and tim doing speedy drugs that will give him anothing heart attack.
the good thing about being away is that it will give me a sence of when anthony leaves and then i REALLY dont have any friends around anymore... the sucky thing about this time away is that it gives me a sence of when anthony leaves and then i REALLY dont have any friends around anymore.
I think I'm going to go update my deviantart journal, and hope that sometime soon phil will answer one of my fucking emails...
why do i even bother doing certian things sometimes? just makes me think about the past and think about what i could have done differntly...
whatever right... im sure there are tons of quotes i could find about not dwelling on the past, but i cant help it... i have a warped brain that wont do what i tell it to do.
and the beat goes on...
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| - Showerhead - I suppose theres much to say for my 17 years but i cant think of anything...
I...
read, draw, smoke pot, have more sex than is "supposely" normal for
someone my age, doodle, spin, drink, peirce, cry, laugh, run, burn,
grow tired, grow up, give up, hold on, practice and preach... but not
nessacarily practice what i preach, write, eat everything and never
gain more than an ounce, live, die, destroy, create, manipulate, love,
hate, obligate myself, and shurk-off duties, swear, sleep, play, work,
irritate and get irritated, smirk, frown, smile, hurt, protect, tie up,
dress up, pretend and believe, swing, slurp, fly though I'm grounded,
don't care, care too much, scar, ache, feel wonderful, am cool with
everthing as long as its cool with me, wonder, walk, skip, jump, and
tumble, wear combat boots and fishnets, ignore, try, hope, dream, wish,
fail, go places, rollerblade, sit on train tracks, sketch, roll joints,
bake, sew, photograph, over-acheive, and under-acheive, want, will, am, need, am
stronger than you'll ever know, warp, scatter ash, pray, guide, learn,
and teach, babble, amaze, joke, touch, see, hear, and breath.
I
am... a friend and a lover, a fighter, and a fire-stater, a ghost, a
freak, a girl and a woman, a whore, a liar, an adventurer, a dork and
an intelligent being, a seeker, a loner and occasionaly a gatherer.
I...
worship my "Greater-Being-of-the-Week", and I follow no one, do as I
please and yet as I'm told, disagree, agree, and sometimes agree to
disagree, believe nothings wrong with gay & lesbian marriage (and
that monogamy, bestiality and bigomy have nothing to do with it), don't
trust the goverment, want to move to Europe, want to travel the world.
I am spontaneous!
I take the currently good offer on the table and don't always think what it effects.
I've done things I'd like to forget, and things i have forgotten.
I... bleed, and drool, and sometimes snore.
I KNOW somethings out there though I'm not sure what.
I...
time, accept, move-on, bury, undress, cope, give and recieve, bruise,
scratch, bite, kiss, lick and suck, move and other times stay
completely still.
I... wiggle my fingers and curl my toes, sing
even though I can't, get embarassed and get over it, dye my hair and
shave it off and don't really know the real color of it anymore, love
rollercoasters and water rides, never sleep but sleep all the time,
miss my room and my childhood, miss my best friend the most, miss out
on alot but catch things others don't, wonder why some people are so
stupid and superficial, wonder if I'm superficial, try to be what I'm
not and am what i am.
Im short and thin and hate it.
I... tell
people my breasts are "exquisite miniatures", love bugs but not the
house kind, hate tv but watch it anyways, masturbate and only give head
if I actually like the guy/girl, push buttons and pull alarms, hate the
cops but know that it's their job, am poor, don't want to be rich just
want to be able to do whatever I want, am happy yet miserable, and
other times miserable yet happy.
I... never totally make up my
mind and don't know why I have to, don't want to settle down, don't
want to be alone, want the perfect relationship but doubt I could
really handle it, want a puppy and a vw microbus.
I am a nanny, a sister, a daughter, and a weirdo.
I...
don't like the concept of socially normal, and cant stand my family,
wish my little brother would grow-up, tried teakwon do and didnt
believe in myself enough.
I enjoy... silence and loud noises,
darkness and trees, nature and machines, and the occasional shopping
trip. And I also think I've typed more than anyone needs to know but
I'll leave you with this: I burp :D!
And I don't really, deep down
care what anyone says, but sometimes believe what they say... oh and I
think ænimas are funny and I'm not sure why... | | |
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